Oh, I haven't written for a long time....probably because I haven't had strong waves of emotion recently. Life here after finishing my thesis has been quite simple, which is not bad. I just enjoyed having lunch at my favourite cafe or shopping on my own. Can't believe that I had such busy days in London...something happened everyday and everything was exciting there. But when you think about the past, everything seems good, doesn't it? Not that I was having fun all the time, but that I haven't written about bad things.

Anyway, I'm starting to work at the company. Finally. Good bye to quiet days, and I'm becoming a serious office worker. God, I'm getting nervous...I called a co-worker one hour ago. "Hi, how are you feeling? I'm scared of starting to work! I even thought of running away..." "Too late. I also thought of escaping to a foreign country, though..." "Did you!? Thank God, Not that I'm the only chicken."

I had a 20-minute chat with him and recovered my nerve a bit. The best thing is that I'm getting on well with my future co-workers, well, so far. I'm afraid I've just got in a bad period. I often think that I've got periods in my life, good ones and bad ones. Last year, everything was good and I thought I'd had a very good period. It seems that I'm getting into bad one. I've got to manage it this time. Definitely. The only good thing recently is I received two e-mails from London. One is from a man I met at a pub on Tottenham Court Road. The other is from Chris. The bastard!(Now I know he isn't.) Perfect timing, actually. I must admit that the e-mail encouraged me.

Now I'm ready for tomorrow. At least, something new is starting and that can't be bad.